It’s been difficult, but yet easier. Daddy and I are staying busy, trying to keep our minds off of the loss of you and remembering that you truly are in a better place than we could ever dream. Today we got to meet your cousin, Jayden. Daveigh, you would love him and your step-cousins. Daddy has been working very hard to provide for us, I know it is helping him get through this pain he is experiencing.
Daddy met two men yesterday who spoke to him about Jesus and one of his clients called as well just to speak to him. If you know your Daddy like I do, you’d know that he doesn’t have a strong belief in the Lord. In fact, when you went to Heaven, he cursed God for taking you from us. He’s confused right now, but I know that the good Lord is trying to show Daddy the way. Daddy said he would consider going to church and I hope he follows through with it.
I miss you, Daveigh. My heart aches when I see other little babies. My heart aches because the image of you haunts my mind. Whether you know this or not, I loved you before I ever met you. You’ve changed me in a way that you will probably never know. Daveigh, you have given me the courage and hope to attend church again and to build a closer relationship to the Lord. Because of you, my sweet little angel, I HAVE to believe that God had a greater purpose for you than I could ever imagine in all the world. I have to believe that God is saving us and you. I have to believe that God knew something we all could not have foreseen.
Daveigh, please don’t misunderstand what I am saying. I love you wholeheartedly and forever will. I can’t wait to meet you in Heaven and to finally wrap my arms around you and give you all the kisses I have already missed giving you. I can’t wait to see your smiling face and to finally know you. I promise you that one day I will be with you if it takes my whole life. I know that while I cannot be with you, you are surrounded by loved ones who have passed before you.
I know that my dear friend Dez is probably teaching you all the things he shouldn’t and that Aunt Kimmie’s babies are there with you, encouraging you to play. I know that Maw and Paw are there as well, Maw singing to you and Paw teaching you about Bear Bryant and NASCAR. I know Daddy’s Nanny and Granddad are there as well. Nanny is probably fixing you cheese toast and Granddad is probably teaching you about the heart beneath the badge. He was a scout master in his lifetime and from everything I have been told, he is a great man.
Then there is Jesus, a wonderful and kind man who is forgiving and loving. He gave his life so that we may live. He is God’s one true son and also the son of Mary and Joseph. Jesus was a carpenter and preached the word of God. He was baptized in the river by John the Baptist. Daveigh, you are in the hands of some amazing people and an awesome God!
Daveigh, my sweet love, I miss you terribly and I hope you have pleasant dreams tonight as you lay down in Heaven to rest. I love you to the depths of my soul and to the ends of the Earth and cosmos. We all love you and miss you. Your big sister doesn’t fully understand and is sad that you are not here, but I’m going to take her to church and teach her that God needed you more than we did and that you are in better hands. We love you.
Love always and forever,